Let it be so...

Lots of unknowns in our life right now. Lots of waiting on the Lord with some hurt, pain, confusion, seeking, longing along the way. It's been a difficult couple of days for me emotionally. God led me to Steven Curtis Chapman's latest album this morning...played it really loud in my car as I was running errands.I had to keep my sunglasses on so people couldn't see my tears and struggle (and then I question why we work so hard to keep people from seeing those things...but that's for another blog entry). I know He has a plan, I know that He is at work. I know that He is made perfect in our weakness. I know it's ok to feel weak sometimes. I know He can be trusted. This is my anthem for today:

"I Will Trust You" Steven Curtis Chapman

I don't even wanna breathe right now

All I wanna do is close my eyes
But I don't wanna open them again
Until I'm standing on the other side

I don't even wanna be right now
I don't wanna think another thought
And I don't wanna feel this pain I feel
And right now, pain is all I've got

It feels like it's all I've got, but I know it's not
No, I know You're all I've got
And I will trust You, I'll trust You
Trust You, God, I will
Even when I don't understand, even then I will say again
You are my God, and I will trust You

God, I'm longing for the day to come
When this cloudy glass I'm looking through
Is shattered in a million pieces
And finally I can just see You

God, You know I believe it's true
I know I will see You
But until the day I do

I will trust You, trust You
Trust You, God, I will
Even when I don't understand
Even then I will say again

You are my God, and I'll trust You
And with every breath I take
And for every day that breaks

I will trust You
I will trust You
And when nothing is making sense
Even then I will say again

God, I trust You
I will trust You
I know Your heart is good
I know Your love is strong
And I know Your plans for me
Are much better than my own

So I will trust You, trust You
I trust You, God, I do
Even when I can't see the end
And I will trust You
I will trust You, I will
Even when I don't understand
Even then I will say again

I will trust You, I will trust You, I will
I know Your heart is good,
Your love is strong,
Your plans for me are better than my own
Yeah, Your heart is good
Your love is strong
Your plans for me are better than my own
And I trust You
You are my God
And I will trust You

- Abby